The fuck, don't call it wasting. It wouldn't be wasting shit, I just don't feel like doing it.

[ He's ruined the hangout, hasn't he? Even through the haze of 'yes yes go make bad decisions' he can tell that much. ]

Fuck, I've brought the mood down. I just wanted to say that I'm not here out of some bullshit obligation. And I figured it'd be easy to come to the conclusion that I was. You know, since everything else I do is because of some bullshit obligation or another. I'm here because I want to be around you. I already fucked up the 'friends' thing once. Maybe more than once, too drunk to count, and I'm trying to do it better,