[Bit by bit, he relaxes more in D's presence, the warmth on his expression still just as sincere as D remains affectionate with him.
Is it selfish, he wonders, to want to have the other dhampir more often with him. He knows how dangerous it'll be to have such connections, but he does want it.]
I used to paint, before everything else. Here, I wish I could say my time was just as constructive. Though I suppose I could easily find supplies here.
[He smiles again, leaning over to rest his forehead a moment against D's shoulder before he looks at him again.] I would relish more of your company -- and I'm flattered to know you would have more of me as well.
[ D believes they've avoided this as long as they could. That course was spent. Having intimate connections was dangerous but more necessary than he would want. It meant exploring territory that was unfamiliar. He was willing, though, to try. ]
If it's space you need we can turn this room into a studio.
[ He lightly touches Alucard's cheek. ]
I'm no fool. We have a lot we can learn from one another.
[ And D would give up the time he spent elsewhere to do so. He only hoped that the city would allow them that much. ]
[ D would like that. Sharing with Alucard was a prospect for the future that he hoped wouldn't be denied them. Unfortunately, he didn't know how to share himself with Alucard. He had no hobbies to speak of. No likes or dislikes. ]
No.
[ His fingers flex against Alucard's face and then he lowers his hand back to his lap. ]
I haven't been this free with my time my entire life. Thousands of years and I don't have an answer to your question.
[It seems that, perhaps, D has felt as if he has no choice but to have lived his whole life as nothing but a hunter. No other passions, no hobbies -- but he couldn't blame him for that.
There is, after all, a part of Alucard that acknowledges that eventually the rest of his own life will be spent sleeping in a coffin from the rest of the world when all is said and done.
But to him, it feels more important right now to share what fragments of his old life are left with D. Alucard shifts how he's sitting, closer to D and gently laying his head onto the hunter's shoulder.]
I want to explore what you may like. To find what makes you feel reignited to enjoy something outside of your usual life.
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Is it selfish, he wonders, to want to have the other dhampir more often with him. He knows how dangerous it'll be to have such connections, but he does want it.]
I used to paint, before everything else. Here, I wish I could say my time was just as constructive. Though I suppose I could easily find supplies here.
[He smiles again, leaning over to rest his forehead a moment against D's shoulder before he looks at him again.] I would relish more of your company -- and I'm flattered to know you would have more of me as well.
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If it's space you need we can turn this room into a studio.
[ He lightly touches Alucard's cheek. ]
I'm no fool. We have a lot we can learn from one another.
[ And D would give up the time he spent elsewhere to do so. He only hoped that the city would allow them that much. ]
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[He closes his eyes and leans faintly into his palm.]
That I fully believe.
Was there anything that you did other than hunt?
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No.
[ His fingers flex against Alucard's face and then he lowers his hand back to his lap. ]
I haven't been this free with my time my entire life. Thousands of years and I don't have an answer to your question.
[ He'd been a hunter. That was all. ]
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[It seems that, perhaps, D has felt as if he has no choice but to have lived his whole life as nothing but a hunter. No other passions, no hobbies -- but he couldn't blame him for that.
There is, after all, a part of Alucard that acknowledges that eventually the rest of his own life will be spent sleeping in a coffin from the rest of the world when all is said and done.
But to him, it feels more important right now to share what fragments of his old life are left with D. Alucard shifts how he's sitting, closer to D and gently laying his head onto the hunter's shoulder.]
I want to explore what you may like. To find what makes you feel reignited to enjoy something outside of your usual life.
You're allowed.