I like that, still. That it's just for us. I'm glad I get to be your first for something.
[Oh. That feels good, too, and he tips his head to rub against Adrian's, nudging against him as comfortingly as he can.]
...Did it help that I was wearing the collar? That I let you tie me up? Because...if you need it, we can do that again. We can do it every time if it helps.
I'm not sure. Maybe because although I was in control, I also knew you would be perfectly capable of taking care of yourself and having the ability to tell me to stop.
More than anything, it was wonderful that I got to share something with you that I have never shared with anyone. That it was just us, and nothing else outside of this apartment. What happened is still burned into me, but I wanted to share myself with you and... try to think more about the present and future. Nothing else.
...Not that tying you up was bad. I rather enjoyed that too.
[He closes his eyes, mumbling nonsense sounds for a minute in his appreciation of the warmth. He's going soft, but as long as neither of them moves around too much, it'll be fine. They can stay just the way they are.
There's something to that idea, he thinks vaguely. Finding something just right, and then holding it as long as they can.]
There was some stuff that I really liked. Some of it was okay. A little bit made me kind of jumpy. Mm. But when you hit it you really hit it.
[It's hard to focus on thinking back when what he really wants to focus on is the feeling of Adrian's fingers on his skin. Still, he does his best.]
I think...I don't want anybody but you looking at me, when we do stuff. You said something about taking me out on the leash and walking around the city. I knew you didn't mean it. Just, there was this asshole once who made me do shit like that. He had one of us hostage and he made me do a bunch of humiliating shit. Walking around town with him.
And...the crawling was a little weird, but it got okay after a while. It made me feel...something. I don't know what it was, but — I closed my eyes so I wouldn't think about feeling stupid, and it was kind of like...
[He falls silent a moment, contemplating.]
Like...everything just got quiet? And easy. I didn't have to think anymore, and I got sort of sleepy. That was nice.
I see. [Adrian leans in closer, nuzzling against Jotaro's temple.] I know you know, but I wouldn't ever do something like that to you. I'll make sure to not tease such a thing in the future.
Hm. Was it because I took control from you? I'm not sure. But if you're opposed, I won't make you do it again.
[Adrian smooths his hand over Jotaro's hair, as if trying to help it go back into order.]
It... was nice. Playing like that. But know that always, you are in just as much control. The moment you decide it isn't to your tastes, tell me and I will stop.
I will always do my best to take care of you after everything.
...Bath. I dunno if I'm going to be able to stand up, after what you did to me.
[Almost like an afterthought, he seems to realize that his hands are free now, and after testing his ability to move one of his arms, he reaches over to run his fingers down the length of Adrian's body.]
Hey. One thing, though.
[...]
So if you shapeshifted back while I was still inside you, would it just snap my dick off, or...?
[Now Adrian allows himself to laugh, smiling and nuzzling against Jotaro.]
Hmm, I suppose I'll spare you.
[He takes another kiss, but slowly and finally lets Jotaro slip out of him with a shiver. Recovered more easily than Jotaro, Adrian is able to gently take him into his arms, smiling at him.]
[He breathes in sharply as they finally part, brow furrowing as he naturally gravitates into Adrian's hold and tries to snuggle in as deep and as close as he can.
...Not that he'd ever admit to calling it snuggling, of course, but. That's definitely what he's doing.]
...Think I could, um. Leave the collar on a little longer? I don't want it to get wet, but.
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[Oh. That feels good, too, and he tips his head to rub against Adrian's, nudging against him as comfortingly as he can.]
...Did it help that I was wearing the collar? That I let you tie me up? Because...if you need it, we can do that again. We can do it every time if it helps.
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More than anything, it was wonderful that I got to share something with you that I have never shared with anyone. That it was just us, and nothing else outside of this apartment. What happened is still burned into me, but I wanted to share myself with you and... try to think more about the present and future. Nothing else.
...Not that tying you up was bad. I rather enjoyed that too.
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[He closes his eyes, mumbling nonsense sounds for a minute in his appreciation of the warmth. He's going soft, but as long as neither of them moves around too much, it'll be fine. They can stay just the way they are.
There's something to that idea, he thinks vaguely. Finding something just right, and then holding it as long as they can.]
There was some stuff that I really liked. Some of it was okay. A little bit made me kind of jumpy. Mm. But when you hit it you really hit it.
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[Idly, he strokes his hand down Jotaro's side, then touches his cheek.]
What is it that I should avoid in the future? This should only be good for both of us.
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[It's hard to focus on thinking back when what he really wants to focus on is the feeling of Adrian's fingers on his skin. Still, he does his best.]
I think...I don't want anybody but you looking at me, when we do stuff. You said something about taking me out on the leash and walking around the city. I knew you didn't mean it. Just, there was this asshole once who made me do shit like that. He had one of us hostage and he made me do a bunch of humiliating shit. Walking around town with him.
And...the crawling was a little weird, but it got okay after a while. It made me feel...something. I don't know what it was, but — I closed my eyes so I wouldn't think about feeling stupid, and it was kind of like...
[He falls silent a moment, contemplating.]
Like...everything just got quiet? And easy. I didn't have to think anymore, and I got sort of sleepy. That was nice.
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Hm. Was it because I took control from you? I'm not sure. But if you're opposed, I won't make you do it again.
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[He makes a little hm noise, as much from the nuzzling as from his own thoughts.]
The pet stuff, I liked. The collar. Being yours. And...yeah, it felt good to just kind of — hm. Be at your mercy? Helpless but safe. That felt good.
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[Adrian smooths his hand over Jotaro's hair, as if trying to help it go back into order.]
It... was nice. Playing like that. But know that always, you are in just as much control. The moment you decide it isn't to your tastes, tell me and I will stop.
I will always do my best to take care of you after everything.
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[The words come out faint, mumbled as he directs most of his focus toward the petting.]
But you'll stop for me. That's...really something.
[He turns his head, interrupting Adrian's efforts, but so that he can lift his face and reach up in expectation of a kiss.]
Kind of crazy. But...the good kind of crazy.
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[The clear sign of asking for a kiss is followed up, Adrian descending and pressing his lips to Jotaro's.]
And right now, I think I need to do us both a favor and have a shower with you. Or a bath.
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[Almost like an afterthought, he seems to realize that his hands are free now, and after testing his ability to move one of his arms, he reaches over to run his fingers down the length of Adrian's body.]
Hey. One thing, though.
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So if you shapeshifted back while I was still inside you, would it just snap my dick off, or...?
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[The question makes him pause, then he looks at Jotaro right in his eyes.]
I would absorb your cock and become more powerful. It'd be painful, but no blood spilled for you. It'd be a waste of blood.
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Bastard!
[It's nice to laugh, though. How good it feels, to just lie in Adrian's arms and be warm and loved and laughing.]
Okay, okay. No cock-absorbing. You're powerful enough as it is.
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Hmm, I suppose I'll spare you.
[He takes another kiss, but slowly and finally lets Jotaro slip out of him with a shiver. Recovered more easily than Jotaro, Adrian is able to gently take him into his arms, smiling at him.]
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[He breathes in sharply as they finally part, brow furrowing as he naturally gravitates into Adrian's hold and tries to snuggle in as deep and as close as he can.
...Not that he'd ever admit to calling it snuggling, of course, but. That's definitely what he's doing.]
...Think I could, um. Leave the collar on a little longer? I don't want it to get wet, but.
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For now, enjoy it. And I will take care of you.