Dio was the first person I encountered capable of seeing stands. I never really thought of him as being a vampire in any way other than a strategic one. To be honest, I always thought of myself as like him, if far, far weaker. I had more in common with him than I would ever have with a human who couldn’t see stands.
I admit, I wouldn't know. People could just experience weird bullshit where I was from regardless of their origins. The fact that one cannot see a Stand is not something I can particularly relate to.
Still. I can't imagine humans treated you as if you weren't a person for what you were. But maybe I'm wrong.
Oh, they never did. They pitied me, at first. Thought I was sick in the head until I told them I’d recovered and wouldn’t talk about things that didn’t exist anymore. They never thought I wasn’t human. Just that they’d done something wrong. Broken me.
I was the one who decided that I must not be a person, once it became unbearable to pretend that Hierophant didn’t exist. It was easier, I think, to not be a person than to be a broken person.
...That was unrelated to my questions. I’m asking a lot of you, and not for any reason other than to sate my own curiosity. You at least deserve to know where I’m coming from.
I suppose that the question I’m really trying to ask here is why there need to be two halves at all, instead of two wholes. If Jotaro and I are entirely human, differentiated from other humans only by ‘weird bullshit’, Jotaro by birthright and I by accident of fate, why can you not be the same? At least to yourself, if not to others.
I'm neither one nor the other completely. I've always been too vampire for humans, too human for vampires. You cannot change what you are anymore than I can, Kakyoin. A human who is a Stand user, and I will always just not be quite complete as I am.
At least in your case, there are other Stand users. As far as I know, there is no one else like me.
Really? I would be curious about that, but I think I should perhaps drop the topic for now. I'll give you more warning, if I ask again.
For what it's worth, I think Jotaro may have overstated how much it would concern me. That you are what you are. What Dio was matters far more than him than it does to me, I think. His family being so tangled in it. Perhaps that's why he understands better than I do. There are. There are a lot of reasons why he might understand better than I do.
Dio was only ever a vampire to me in that I should be aware that he would be stronger after consuming blood, and in that facing him during the day would be a significant strategical advantage. What he did to me was a vampire-thing, but I only ever knew that in hindsight. To me, he was like me. Just stronger. Maybe a little more unkind. You are like me. Just stronger. And probably a better person.
...And also one who may want to clarify within the next few minutes whether they really meant what they said about cutting their hair.
There are half-demons and the like, but my circumstances are a little unique. I am aware of that. But yes, I will leave that topic alone at the moment.
I'm less sure that it was him that overstated it and more that I am personally concerned with it. I'm not unused to unfortunate assumptions about myself, and I personally wanted to be sure that I didn't remind you of Dio at all.
[Oh. Hey Hierophant. Adrian isn't even going to attempt to dodge anything what's up.]
...and while I am clarifying things that probably no longer need to be clarified, I have no intention of killing you mid-coitus. If I’m going to kill someone, I’d rather do so from at least twenty feet away. Which would make for tremendously unsatisfying sex.
[ Hierophant wraps around Adrian’s hair like a ribbon, tightening as one last warning. ]
I know that I don't. ...Rather, I know that now. When you first showed up, I was more concerned for your well-being.
In any case. That matter in particular is a vulnerable spot for me. I wouldn't mind trying something with you, but if I need us to stop just know it isn't you at all. It's... what happened.
[Hmm hmm. He takes one of Hierophant's tentacles, but doesn't try to do anything else. Like it's his way of giving permission.]
[Golden hair falls to the floor, and for a moment Adrian's hair is short, at least until suddenly it starts to grow out again like he's a goddamn magical girl or something. In any case, he doesn't look put out.
Instead, he smiles crookedly, and turns his head to brush his lips against one of Hierophant's tentacles. This time, he speaks out loud.]
[ There's a surprised twitch, and Adrian's lips are against a hand rather than a tentacle. It's the first time Hierophant's taken a humanoid form - or at least the top half of one - since Kakyoin first arrived. Briefly left without instructions, to his own devices, Hierophant is just about everything Kakyoin would rather not be. Nervous. Delicate, almost. People-shaped. He makes a quiet whirring noise, like the fans of a machine that needs to regulate its heat, staying very still but not pulling his hand back from Adrian's lips.
He turns his head to look at Adrian's phone when it sounds a notification, and the moment is over. He's a mass of ribbons again. ]
[ Hierophant is a shy soft good boy who does not deserve his gremlin of a user. He slithers under the couch, emerging just sligtly after a moment to 'look' up at Adrian. ]
Not necessarily. But it would be nice to always have the option.
Of course the implication here is that I could play all manner of hair-dye-related tricks on you without consequence.
[ It's a little frustrating, in truth, that Hierophant has decided to hide. He can't see much beyond the underside of the couch. One of the racoon's toys has ended up stuck under here. He shoves it back out.
It's not like Hierophant hasn't decided that he likes or dislikes people on his own before, but this is the first time one of them has been able to see him. He's not quite sure how to manage a stand that's experiencing its crush noticing it. ]
Let me have this. You're immune to just about every other prank I could play on you.
I'd hypothesise that you could just grow out your hair again and then cut away the dyed part.
Yes that doesn't seem exceptionally helpful, but about what I expect from Jojo's grandfather based on what I know.
In any case, to go back to your first question at the start of this conversation, I think it would be nice to have sex with you when you feel in the mood for it.
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I would describe myself as "not enough".
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It’s curious to me.
That you consider Jotaro and I human, and yourself something other.
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Not to Jojo, though. He tries his best to accept both of those sides. That's more than what most people have ever given me.
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Dio was the first person I encountered capable of seeing stands. I never really thought of him as being a vampire in any way other than a strategic one. To be honest, I always thought of myself as like him, if far, far weaker. I had more in common with him than I would ever have with a human who couldn’t see stands.
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Still. I can't imagine humans treated you as if you weren't a person for what you were. But maybe I'm wrong.
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I was the one who decided that I must not be a person, once it became unbearable to pretend that Hierophant didn’t exist. It was easier, I think, to not be a person than to be a broken person.
...That was unrelated to my questions. I’m asking a lot of you, and not for any reason other than to sate my own curiosity. You at least deserve to know where I’m coming from.
I suppose that the question I’m really trying to ask here is why there need to be two halves at all, instead of two wholes. If Jotaro and I are entirely human, differentiated from other humans only by ‘weird bullshit’, Jotaro by birthright and I by accident of fate, why can you not be the same? At least to yourself, if not to others.
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At least in your case, there are other Stand users. As far as I know, there is no one else like me.
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For what it's worth, I think Jotaro may have overstated how much it would concern me. That you are what you are. What Dio was matters far more than him than it does to me, I think. His family being so tangled in it. Perhaps that's why he understands better than I do. There are.
There are a lot of reasons why he might understand better than I do.
Dio was only ever a vampire to me in that I should be aware that he would be stronger after consuming blood, and in that facing him during the day would be a significant strategical advantage. What he did to me was a vampire-thing, but I only ever knew that in hindsight. To me, he was like me. Just stronger. Maybe a little more unkind. You are like me. Just stronger. And probably a better person.
...And also one who may want to clarify within the next few minutes whether they really meant what they said about cutting their hair.
[ Hierophant is in the room. Hi. ]
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I'm less sure that it was him that overstated it and more that I am personally concerned with it. I'm not unused to unfortunate assumptions about myself, and I personally wanted to be sure that I didn't remind you of Dio at all.
[Oh. Hey Hierophant. Adrian isn't even going to attempt to dodge anything what's up.]
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...and while I am clarifying things that probably no longer need to be clarified, I have no intention of killing you mid-coitus. If I’m going to kill someone, I’d rather do so from at least twenty feet away. Which would make for tremendously unsatisfying sex.
[ Hierophant wraps around Adrian’s hair like a ribbon, tightening as one last warning. ]
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In any case. That matter in particular is a vulnerable spot for me. I wouldn't mind trying something with you, but if I need us to stop just know it isn't you at all. It's... what happened.
[Hmm hmm. He takes one of Hierophant's tentacles, but doesn't try to do anything else. Like it's his way of giving permission.]
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[ And Hierophant's tentacle sharpens into green glass before constricting, slicing through Adrian's hair. ]
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Instead, he smiles crookedly, and turns his head to brush his lips against one of Hierophant's tentacles. This time, he speaks out loud.]
Perhaps a harmless prank from me this time.
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He turns his head to look at Adrian's phone when it sounds a notification, and the moment is over. He's a mass of ribbons again. ]
Have you any fucking idea.
How jealous I am.
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He looks down at his phone, then chuckles softly.]
Of supernatural hair growing at fantastic speeds? Yes, I suppose so. Why, do you want long hair, Kakyoin?
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Not necessarily. But it would be nice to always have the option.
Of course the implication here is that I could play all manner of hair-dye-related tricks on you without consequence.
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I actually have no idea how hair dye might affect me. I've never attempted it.
...We could test it out. Or you can prank me in that way.
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It's not like Hierophant hasn't decided that he likes or dislikes people on his own before, but this is the first time one of them has been able to see him. He's not quite sure how to manage a stand that's experiencing its crush noticing it. ]
Let me have this. You're immune to just about every other prank I could play on you.
I'd hypothesise that you could just grow out your hair again and then cut away the dyed part.
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Well, that's a given. Maybe I could shove the particles out of my hair and it's like juicing hair dye. We just don't know yet.
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wait.
You.
Have reason to believe that you can selectively break chemical bonds within your own hair.
By thinking about it.
That's the world's best, least useful, nerdiest superpower what the fuck. Please locate a locker so I can shove you into it.
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What does a locker have to do with it?
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Oh my god and it's an endothermic reaction I swear to god if this is how Dio's ice thing works I'm
going to need to find a bigger locker because he won't fit in a normal one.
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Dio's
ice thing?
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It was very vague. Not as helpful as it could have been as a warning, I'll be honest.
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In any case, to go back to your first question at the start of this conversation, I think it would be nice to have sex with you when you feel in the mood for it.
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