( though vanessa doesn't turn to look at him she does lift her head, looking at his reflection in the window )
You accepted my position without question and answered mine when you didn't need to.
( 'accepted' may be a little bit of an exaggeration on what he felt at her response to him, which vanessa knows. it's part why she'd asked him here. their two conversations lingering, his almost trust with how he'd explained his life. and vanessa had come to accept that -- accept him somewhat. that wasn't an exaggeration )
My friend Mina was taken by a vampire.
( this isn't the story that vanessa wishes to tell but she adds it for context. the fact that she'd had negative experiences with vampires was obvious but now he could know why )
The details are less important. ( it would be if it were the story she had planned on telling ) But it was my first experience into that world, into the demimonde I spoke of.
( truthfully she'd walked the demimonde her entire life but vanessa hadn't known that then )
( vanessa closes her eyes briefly at his words, in memory of mina, and feels a little comforted by his understanding. it was a strange feeling, something she didn't know that she needed )
I wish I could say that was all.
( her eyes open again and her expression is a little uncomfortable. she'd never spoken of this. even those that had been around her as it had occurred hadn't spoken of it with her afterwards. they hadn't needed to )
It is not only of vampires that I know. ( they had spoken of demons too, if briefly ) I am hunted. Lucifer wishes for my soul.
( she had sent him back to hell and his nightcomers were dead but was that truly the end of it? there had been no time since for vanessa to know )
His mind goes immediately to Kira, present on the station, masquerading as a human for as long as he can manage it. However, he knows that things are not so linear; one version of Lucifer is not another. Alternate realities, times, and so on.]
( it's a whisper. it wasn't entirely true. vanessa knew why he wanted her, to overthrow god, but why her? what was it about her? )
There was a prophecy, one told by Lucifer. ( though she'd never heard the finished translation. vanessa had rejected it, not wanting to know it ) Though he was not alone in the tale.
[Alucard finally approaches a little more closely, still leaving Vanessa space should she need it. Though he likes to think they've come to an understanding, he would not make an assumption about she feels about him.]
( it is not the answer that vanessa wishes she could give. if she knew the name it would be one that she would tell to him. if only she knew that the name, and the reason that they both desired her, was hidden in her memories. repressed. she turns to look at him now though does not move any closer, more a wounded need of protection than a mistrust of him )
( there was a pause for a few seconds. it was not easy. it was a difficult weight that she carried, particularly so alone, but there it was. it was not the whole story, it never was, but the rest was to be discovered in time )
I have told no other here.
( she knows that he's to be trusted with a secret -- he had his own )
( they both know that alucard didn't have to tell her about his goals, particularly with the reaction that vanessa had had to him. the fact that he had, that their discussion following had been amicable, had said much of both of them )
It is something, knowing that another understands the curses we face. Few would.
( the words are a whisper though there's emotion to them -- sentiment, care. she hadn't expected his opinion to ever be important and she found that she was genuinely touched by his words )
Until then I am glad that the worry is not here. No one else needs to be pulled into my troubles.
( had he not been patient he would not have understood her, not allowed her the chance to attempt to understand him, to find her own patience )
Being from different worlds can make us feel more alone than we are. ( at least vanessa feels that deeply. even with people she'd known at home, she'd felt so alone at times ) But we are all trying to find our way home.
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My lady.
What is it that I can do for you?
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You accepted my position without question and answered mine when you didn't need to.
( 'accepted' may be a little bit of an exaggeration on what he felt at her response to him, which vanessa knows. it's part why she'd asked him here. their two conversations lingering, his almost trust with how he'd explained his life. and vanessa had come to accept that -- accept him somewhat. that wasn't an exaggeration )
My friend Mina was taken by a vampire.
( this isn't the story that vanessa wishes to tell but she adds it for context. the fact that she'd had negative experiences with vampires was obvious but now he could know why )
The details are less important. ( it would be if it were the story she had planned on telling ) But it was my first experience into that world, into the demimonde I spoke of.
( truthfully she'd walked the demimonde her entire life but vanessa hadn't known that then )
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I am sorry about your friend.
[His voice remains gentle and sincere.]
I suspected your encounters had been... difficult. [It was understandable why she reacted the way she had initially.]
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I wish I could say that was all.
( her eyes open again and her expression is a little uncomfortable. she'd never spoken of this. even those that had been around her as it had occurred hadn't spoken of it with her afterwards. they hadn't needed to )
It is not only of vampires that I know. ( they had spoken of demons too, if briefly ) I am hunted. Lucifer wishes for my soul.
( she had sent him back to hell and his nightcomers were dead but was that truly the end of it? there had been no time since for vanessa to know )
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His mind goes immediately to Kira, present on the station, masquerading as a human for as long as he can manage it. However, he knows that things are not so linear; one version of Lucifer is not another. Alternate realities, times, and so on.]
What interest does he have for you?
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( it's a whisper. it wasn't entirely true. vanessa knew why he wanted her, to overthrow god, but why her? what was it about her? )
There was a prophecy, one told by Lucifer. ( though she'd never heard the finished translation. vanessa had rejected it, not wanting to know it ) Though he was not alone in the tale.
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Who else was there?
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( it is not the answer that vanessa wishes she could give. if she knew the name it would be one that she would tell to him. if only she knew that the name, and the reason that they both desired her, was hidden in her memories. repressed. she turns to look at him now though does not move any closer, more a wounded need of protection than a mistrust of him )
They were cast out by God.
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[Alucard isn't certain how to respond to that last line. God has no love for beings like him, but God was not meant for anything but humans.
He keeps his distance now, not wishing to make her feel cornered.]
As fallen angels tend to be, I gather.
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( unless she had seriously missed something )
But I wanted you to know.
( to understand, to explain. because she'd found some measure of almost trust in him )
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[To him, it seems possible, in any case.
He pauses at her next words, his expression softening.]
That is... Rather, I appreciate that, Vanessa. I know telling me was not easy.
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( there was a pause for a few seconds. it was not easy. it was a difficult weight that she carried, particularly so alone, but there it was. it was not the whole story, it never was, but the rest was to be discovered in time )
I have told no other here.
( she knows that he's to be trusted with a secret -- he had his own )
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Alucard takes in a deep breath.]
And I will not tell any. I will keep it to myself.
Your trust is more appreciated than I can truly say.
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( they both know that alucard didn't have to tell her about his goals, particularly with the reaction that vanessa had had to him. the fact that he had, that their discussion following had been amicable, had said much of both of them )
It is something, knowing that another understands the curses we face. Few would.
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[It does warm him slightly to know how much she's come around. She didn't have to; she could have continued to begrudge him and what he is.
But she decided to do otherwise.
Mother was right. He knows this, but it is validating to experience it.]
I hope you are victorious should you ever return to your homeland, Vanessa.
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( the words are a whisper though there's emotion to them -- sentiment, care. she hadn't expected his opinion to ever be important and she found that she was genuinely touched by his words )
Until then I am glad that the worry is not here. No one else needs to be pulled into my troubles.
( and they all had enough to be concerned with )
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[For him, the thought of Wallachia and his father plagues him. Alucard is under a strict timeline that he hopes to beat.
But for Vanessa, for others -- despite being in such a place like this, perhaps it is almost freeing in a way. He wishes he could agree.]
I'm glad we have met. It is easy to become discouraged at times, but with you, I must remember that an understanding can be made between people.
I must remain patient.
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You gave me that opportunity.
( had he not been patient he would not have understood her, not allowed her the chance to attempt to understand him, to find her own patience )
Being from different worlds can make us feel more alone than we are. ( at least vanessa feels that deeply. even with people she'd known at home, she'd felt so alone at times ) But we are all trying to find our way home.