You should definitely know there's more to things than just two basic survival needs. Don't worry. Just leave it to us, hm?
It isn't stupid. Sanguis is very possessive and territorial, isn't it? It really does remind me a lot of what it is to be a vampire, at least with those traits. That is to say, I don't find it unfamiliar or distressing.
I'll be along soon. Would you like me to bring anything?
Your words this time. There really are other things to one's life, Jotaro. Culture, art, science. Even hobbies. I want to encourage those in you too.
I didn't mean it as a negative thing. Even when a vampire loves it can be a little overbearing. Mother once joked about beating off Father with a broom but I don't know if she was entirely joking. In any case I understand what you mean. I'm not worried about you mistreating me.
was it a big library what kind of stuff did it have in it if it was in a castle i bet it was pretty big
sanguis for me feels like it reminds me of when i first got star how it's a part of me but it's separate too i know it's not me but it's not something i can just make go away i can control it or i can let it run wild but in the end it's still the part that's me making the decision
sometimes star wants things sometimes he wants them so bad i can feel it it's like he's begging me to let him have it sanguis is like that too, just more animal
Enormous. It had a couple of floors of books. Knowledge Father acquired throughout the world. Some things he had written. Others he had rescued from destruction. Knowledge ancient and forgotten, preserved in his castle. There were other books less kind written by him. Inventions he'd thought of, wicked ones. He was a man capable of wonderful love and terrible deeds. That is the complexity of most beings, I suppose.
It's better for me to suppress those parts of me. Sanguis is temporary. I will always be what I am.
I'm not proud of it, but yes. Friends are few for me. And I would hate to make you feel like a possession or something else like that. I want to be careful. For you.
you should paint a lot of things and then show them to me
you know there aren't a lot of people who are careful with me guess people figure i'm pretty big and pretty tough so they don't need to be careful because i guess i look like the kind of guy who can take it
but you're careful i think you're careful with me in a lot of ways it's kinda... i think i like that
I also don't wish to become anything like Dracula. His love for Mother is also what turned him mad. A frightening thing that can motivate you, for better or for worse. And a vampire's heart obsesses and needs.
remember how you figured out what star can do when we were sparring, what i did to break your hold dio could do it too and he was a lot better at it than us
star is my soul and he's the same as dio's stand was and there isn't a day i don't wake up and ask myself what that means if our souls are twins, then i must be like him and i think i was there to stop dio but now dio is dead and gone so if i ever ended up like him, who's there to stop me
it doesn't help it doesn't fix anything but i get it not wanting to be anything like him but always knowing just how close you are to it
I can understand your fear, then. To be afraid of becoming anything like the man you hate most. Even if he's gone. For me, I miss my father. I miss the man he was before he went completely mad. And I worry becoming like him, if something were to happen to people I care for as much as he cared for Mother.
I wish you didn't understand, for your own sake. You deserve a peace of mind.
For awhile, I wanted to be a scientist like him, or a doctor like Mother. I may have said that once already. I do have an interest in those things, but I always felt more passionate about art. He would encourage it, you know. And I painted him a picture of Mother.
That I could capture a memory, or bring forth my imagination. The stroke of a brush is immensely soothing. Or to try different techniques around the world. Sculpting, charcoal, ink. There are so many ways.
But you're right. It's just makes sense for me. More than most things.
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Don't worry. Just leave it to us, hm?
It isn't stupid.
Sanguis is very possessive and territorial, isn't it? It really does remind me a lot of what it is to be a vampire, at least with those traits.
That is to say, I don't find it unfamiliar or distressing.
I'll be along soon. Would you like me to bring anything?
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stop smoking because you don't like the smell
and it'll fill my lungs with tar i get it
wait
what i said
you know that wasn't a stupid euphemism right
i'm not
i meant what i said about treating you better than that
sanguis is possessive and territorial
and sometimes kind of agitated and pissed off all the time
i just know i'll be calmer if you're here
bring that blanket i gave you too
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I want to encourage those in you too.
I didn't mean it as a negative thing. Even when a vampire loves it
can be a little overbearing.
Mother once joked about beating off Father with a broom but I don't know if she was entirely joking.
In any case I understand what you mean.
I'm not worried about you mistreating me.
I will.
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the one you wrote
it's really interesting and i keep thinking of questions
...
now i'm just thinking about your mom hitting actual dracula with a broom
real or not that's pretty funny
have you felt that feeling before too
the overbearing one
have you felt like that about somebody
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In retrospect, were it possible, I'd take you to see Father's castle, actually. You might have liked his library.
In ways.
I've done what I could to ignore it, though.
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what kind of stuff did it have in it
if it was in a castle i bet it was pretty big
sanguis for me feels like
it reminds me of when i first got star
how it's a part of me but it's separate too
i know it's not me
but it's not something i can just make go away
i can control it or i can let it run wild
but in the end it's still the part that's me making the decision
sometimes star wants things
sometimes he wants them so bad i can feel it
it's like he's begging me to let him have it
sanguis is like that too, just more animal
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Knowledge Father acquired throughout the world. Some things he had written. Others he had rescued from destruction. Knowledge ancient and forgotten, preserved in his castle.
There were other books less kind written by him. Inventions he'd thought of, wicked ones.
He was a man capable of wonderful love and terrible deeds. That is the complexity of most beings, I suppose.
It's better for me to suppress those parts of me.
Sanguis is temporary. I will always be what I am.
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people are capable of plenty of things but they choose what they're going to do and be
it sounds like an interesting place though
the castle
who knows, maybe i'll see it sometime somehow
when you say it's better
do you mean better for you
or better for everyone else
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I can draw parts of it by memory.
Perhaps not anytime soon would you see it, but from my memories you will be able to.
I
suppose I mean both.
Other people, and me.
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maybe after you draw it you could paint it
i would keep it if you did
am i one of the other people
you don't have to explain you can just say yes or no
is it better for me that you hold back like that
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I'm not proud of it, but yes.
Friends are few for me. And I would hate to make you feel like a possession or something else like that.
I want to be careful. For you.
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and then show them to me
you know
there aren't a lot of people who are careful with me
guess people figure i'm pretty big and pretty tough
so they don't need to be careful
because i guess i look like the kind of guy who can take it
but you're careful
i think you're careful with me in a lot of ways
it's kinda...
i think i like that
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The heart is more fragile than anyone gives credit for.
I would loathe to hurt yours.
And I wish I could properly emphasize what it means that I want to be careful and never suffocate you with all I would want.
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i'll trade you
tell me one thing
and i'll tell you one thing i want
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I need to remember my restraint. No matter what.
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it scares you
doesn't it
because if you let go
what happens is
you think i'll stop being your friend
you think you'll lose me
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I also don't wish to become anything like Dracula.
His love for Mother is also what turned him mad.
A frightening thing that can motivate you, for better or for worse. And a vampire's heart obsesses and needs.
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when we were sparring, what i did to break your hold
dio could do it too
and he was a lot better at it than us
star is my soul
and he's the same as dio's stand was
and there isn't a day i don't wake up and ask myself what that means
if our souls are twins, then i must be like him
and i think
i was there to stop dio
but now dio is dead and gone
so if i ever ended up like him, who's there to stop me
it doesn't help
it doesn't fix anything
but i get it
not wanting to be anything like him
but always knowing just how close you are to it
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To be afraid of becoming anything like the man you hate most. Even if he's gone.
For me, I miss my father. I miss the man he was before he went completely mad.
And I worry becoming like him, if something were to happen to people I care for as much as he cared for Mother.
I wish you didn't understand, for your own sake.
You deserve a peace of mind.
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you make it so
easy
what did he want you to grow up to be
before everything went wrong
that's the kind of thing a dad feels, right
do you know what he wanted for you
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For awhile, I wanted to be a scientist like him, or a doctor like Mother.
I may have said that once already.
I do have an interest in those things, but I always felt more passionate about art.
He would encourage it, you know.
And I painted him a picture of Mother.
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what is it about it that makes you happy?
something about it just makes sense, right
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The stroke of a brush is immensely soothing.
Or to try different techniques around the world.
Sculpting, charcoal, ink. There are so many ways.
But you're right. It's just makes sense for me. More than most things.
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that's the technique of the future
or animation i guess
art that moves
how much art have you done since you got here
have you done any