I see. Do you think he'd be opposed if I asked him for some advice? On how he manages it. It's easier now that I can put a name and face to your friend.
He cares very much about others, doesn't he? Even complete strangers, it seems. I'm glad you have him.
I wouldn't be surprised if that were true. I spent most of it inside of my apartment, but I could see myself making some poor decisions outside of it. Though I suppose it's a matter of getting used to it.
It was nice to have you be with me last time. I wouldn't demand that you do it again, but I am grateful to have your company and friendship alike.
avdol is one of the best guys i know he gets on my case just like you do he was bugging me about getting enough sleep and i told him you helped me with the lavender oil and tea and stuff he liked that
yeah i i wanted to uh about that
can i do it anyway you don't have to demand i want to be there i want to take care of you
Then he and I have something else in common. Good.
Oh Then I think we can both agree to that. I'd like for you to be here then when it gets close to the triple moon. There are many words I have for what I felt, but know especially that I felt comforted most of all.
You should definitely know there's more to things than just two basic survival needs. Don't worry. Just leave it to us, hm?
It isn't stupid. Sanguis is very possessive and territorial, isn't it? It really does remind me a lot of what it is to be a vampire, at least with those traits. That is to say, I don't find it unfamiliar or distressing.
I'll be along soon. Would you like me to bring anything?
Your words this time. There really are other things to one's life, Jotaro. Culture, art, science. Even hobbies. I want to encourage those in you too.
I didn't mean it as a negative thing. Even when a vampire loves it can be a little overbearing. Mother once joked about beating off Father with a broom but I don't know if she was entirely joking. In any case I understand what you mean. I'm not worried about you mistreating me.
was it a big library what kind of stuff did it have in it if it was in a castle i bet it was pretty big
sanguis for me feels like it reminds me of when i first got star how it's a part of me but it's separate too i know it's not me but it's not something i can just make go away i can control it or i can let it run wild but in the end it's still the part that's me making the decision
sometimes star wants things sometimes he wants them so bad i can feel it it's like he's begging me to let him have it sanguis is like that too, just more animal
Enormous. It had a couple of floors of books. Knowledge Father acquired throughout the world. Some things he had written. Others he had rescued from destruction. Knowledge ancient and forgotten, preserved in his castle. There were other books less kind written by him. Inventions he'd thought of, wicked ones. He was a man capable of wonderful love and terrible deeds. That is the complexity of most beings, I suppose.
It's better for me to suppress those parts of me. Sanguis is temporary. I will always be what I am.
I'm not proud of it, but yes. Friends are few for me. And I would hate to make you feel like a possession or something else like that. I want to be careful. For you.
you should paint a lot of things and then show them to me
you know there aren't a lot of people who are careful with me guess people figure i'm pretty big and pretty tough so they don't need to be careful because i guess i look like the kind of guy who can take it
but you're careful i think you're careful with me in a lot of ways it's kinda... i think i like that
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i mean yeah
avdol's pretty much the best
i mean except when he's being too fucking smart for his own good
which is most of the time
he's the uh
the friend i told you about that one time
the one who's an iris like you
that's him
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I see.
Do you think he'd be opposed if I asked him for some advice? On how he manages it. It's easier now that I can put a name and face to your friend.
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he's good to talk to
i think he likes it
actually i think he'd probably like it too
having someone to talk to who's in the same situation as him
i figure it's probably the kind of thing that you only really understand if it's happened to you
he told me triple moons are pretty bad for him
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Even complete strangers, it seems.
I'm glad you have him.
I wouldn't be surprised if that were true.
I spent most of it inside of my apartment, but I could see myself making some poor decisions outside of it. Though I suppose it's a matter of getting used to it.
It was
nice to have you be with me last time.
I wouldn't demand that you do it again, but I am grateful to have your company and friendship alike.
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he gets on my case just like you do
he was bugging me about getting enough sleep and i told him you helped me
with the lavender oil and tea and stuff
he liked that
yeah i
i wanted to uh
about that
can i do it anyway
you don't have to demand
i want to be there
i want to take care of you
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Good.
Oh
Then I think we can both agree to that.
I'd like for you to be here then when it gets close to the triple moon.
There are many words I have for what I felt, but know especially that I felt comforted most of all.
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i don't even know why i'm encouraging you talking to him
you'll just gang up on me probably
yare yare
listen
i'm...glad
i want you to feel calm with me
um
that day, you said
i'm not trying to say you owe me anything
but you seemed like
like you wanted it to be even
with us
do you still want that
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Be prepared, Jotaro. Two of your friends may very well plot to take care of you.
Horrible, isn't it?
I do. Very much.
Whatever it is that you need, I would gladly do it for you.
Do you want to tell me like this in text? That seems easier for you.
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what the hell else are you two going to come up with
it's not need exactly
it's just sanguis
i think it misses you
...that sounds stupid and weird
i want to just
i want
i want you to take care of me
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Don't worry. Just leave it to us, hm?
It isn't stupid.
Sanguis is very possessive and territorial, isn't it? It really does remind me a lot of what it is to be a vampire, at least with those traits.
That is to say, I don't find it unfamiliar or distressing.
I'll be along soon. Would you like me to bring anything?
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stop smoking because you don't like the smell
and it'll fill my lungs with tar i get it
wait
what i said
you know that wasn't a stupid euphemism right
i'm not
i meant what i said about treating you better than that
sanguis is possessive and territorial
and sometimes kind of agitated and pissed off all the time
i just know i'll be calmer if you're here
bring that blanket i gave you too
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I want to encourage those in you too.
I didn't mean it as a negative thing. Even when a vampire loves it
can be a little overbearing.
Mother once joked about beating off Father with a broom but I don't know if she was entirely joking.
In any case I understand what you mean.
I'm not worried about you mistreating me.
I will.
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the one you wrote
it's really interesting and i keep thinking of questions
...
now i'm just thinking about your mom hitting actual dracula with a broom
real or not that's pretty funny
have you felt that feeling before too
the overbearing one
have you felt like that about somebody
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In retrospect, were it possible, I'd take you to see Father's castle, actually. You might have liked his library.
In ways.
I've done what I could to ignore it, though.
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what kind of stuff did it have in it
if it was in a castle i bet it was pretty big
sanguis for me feels like
it reminds me of when i first got star
how it's a part of me but it's separate too
i know it's not me
but it's not something i can just make go away
i can control it or i can let it run wild
but in the end it's still the part that's me making the decision
sometimes star wants things
sometimes he wants them so bad i can feel it
it's like he's begging me to let him have it
sanguis is like that too, just more animal
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Knowledge Father acquired throughout the world. Some things he had written. Others he had rescued from destruction. Knowledge ancient and forgotten, preserved in his castle.
There were other books less kind written by him. Inventions he'd thought of, wicked ones.
He was a man capable of wonderful love and terrible deeds. That is the complexity of most beings, I suppose.
It's better for me to suppress those parts of me.
Sanguis is temporary. I will always be what I am.
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people are capable of plenty of things but they choose what they're going to do and be
it sounds like an interesting place though
the castle
who knows, maybe i'll see it sometime somehow
when you say it's better
do you mean better for you
or better for everyone else
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I can draw parts of it by memory.
Perhaps not anytime soon would you see it, but from my memories you will be able to.
I
suppose I mean both.
Other people, and me.
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maybe after you draw it you could paint it
i would keep it if you did
am i one of the other people
you don't have to explain you can just say yes or no
is it better for me that you hold back like that
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I'm not proud of it, but yes.
Friends are few for me. And I would hate to make you feel like a possession or something else like that.
I want to be careful. For you.
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and then show them to me
you know
there aren't a lot of people who are careful with me
guess people figure i'm pretty big and pretty tough
so they don't need to be careful
because i guess i look like the kind of guy who can take it
but you're careful
i think you're careful with me in a lot of ways
it's kinda...
i think i like that
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The heart is more fragile than anyone gives credit for.
I would loathe to hurt yours.
And I wish I could properly emphasize what it means that I want to be careful and never suffocate you with all I would want.
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i'll trade you
tell me one thing
and i'll tell you one thing i want
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I need to remember my restraint. No matter what.
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it scares you
doesn't it
because if you let go
what happens is
you think i'll stop being your friend
you think you'll lose me
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