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[reposing]

[Honestly, he'd been ready to follow up with I appreciate you being so forward thinking to save us extra work, but the sudden added comment makes him pause.

WOW. OKAY. Going to just jump to it, then.]

Why do you ask?
Do you want to?

[implementing evasive maneuvers sir]

[hierophany]

Yes. That would be why I asked.

[ OBVIOUSLY, gosh. ]

I can ask someone else if you would rather not. It just seemed best to ask you first.

[reposing]

It's not that I don't want to it's that
From what I understand, humans having multiple partners is not considered the most average thing to expect.
Sexual partners perhaps, but nothing beyond that.

[hierophany]

Ah.

You're right, I suppose. It isn't particularly normal back home. I wouldn't consider it the least normal thing about all of this, but yes. It isn't. Considered normal.

Is that a problem? Do you expect it would be a problem for him?

[reposing]

Normality is not what I'm concerned with. Your feelings and Jojo's are.

I'm not sure. I don't think it'll be a problem, honestly.

[hierophany]

I was assuming it wouldn't be an issue. I would ask, but that would defy the point of this somewhat.

Would you want to, if it weren't an issue?

[reposing]

I do but
I think I might be an issue. Me personally, that is.

[hierophany]

[ There's a minute, maybe, before he responds. ]

May I ask why?

[reposing]

Yes.

I'll try to explain
it's probably better like this anyway.
I don't think I'd be able to explain it well in person

I had a
difficult experience with some humans. Emotionally. Intimately.
Jojo knows about them. And I trust him, obviously. I'm comfortable with him and I know he accepts me for all that I am. And for me, I do the same for him.
But not all humans do
And I have a hard time letting myself be vulnerable with many humans in return.

I suppose I have no right saying that
You're asking a vampire about sex after all.

[hierophany]

No. No, I understand, I think. I mean. I really understand. I just hadn't really thought of sex as vulnerability. Or of you as a vampire, or myself as a human, really.

[ An awkward 'typing...' pause, far too long for the message that arrives afterward. ]

I think I slept with Dio.

[reposing]

I wouldn't normally be concerned, but
it's a little hard to think of it as otherwise when people try to kill you mid-coitus.

I see.
Did you want to at the time? I suppose that's hard to say with someone like him.

[hierophany]

Ah. Understandable.

I would have. He was very beautiful. And I was somewhat pathetic. I loved him. If he were willing, I think I would have. And I know he was [ kind of a slut. ] not above such things.

I spent a few months with him, and I remember very little of it.

[reposing]

So you think it is a possibility.

Do I remind you of him at all? It's irrational perhaps but I worry that I might. I worried the same for Jojo for awhile.

[hierophany]

No, not really.

Perhaps it would have been different, had I been aware of what you are before I met you. But the similarities begin and end with teeth and physical strength. Neither of those things ever defined him, and neither of them define you.

What defined him, to me, was his presence. Jotaro's grandfather called it charisma, and I think it was something entirely separate from his vampirism. In his presence, you would simply feel that so long as you did as he wished, you would be- complete, somehow. Your understanding of the world would be replaced, entirely, by his own wishes. He was less person and more hierophany. In truth, I think Jotaro has more in common with him than you.

Your presence is entirely that of someone whose shoelaces I want to tie together, to be honest.

[reposing]

He sounds like a few vampires I could think of. Hardly surprising.

What a bully. Good thing I don't use laces.

[hierophany]

Oh. Perhaps it is a vampire thing, then. Not just me running into a beautiful man and deciding he must be some kind of wonderful vampire messiah.

It's a tragedy. Do you know how difficult it is to come up with ways to fuck with you? I'm going to have to resort to putting pink dye in your shampoo one of these days.

[reposing]

No, it could be both of those things. Don't get me wrong.

Terrible. You should try cutting my hair and see what happens.

[hierophany]

I genuinely can't tell if that's a threat or an indication that something would happen.

I'm aware that I don't make a habit of asking permission to ask inappropriately personal questions, but may I ask something?

[reposing]

Something would happen.

I think for the fact that you're asking permission makes it all the easier to tell you "yes". So, you may.

[hierophany]

Would you describe yourself as a human, if you were speaking with a vampire?

[reposing]

No.
I would describe myself as "not enough".

[hierophany]

Oh. Feel free to tell me to fuck off if I am overstepping, but

It’s curious to me.
That you consider Jotaro and I human, and yourself something other.

[reposing]

I've never been human enough for most humans. Nor have I ever been particularly more than the "half-breed" to most vampires.

Not to Jojo, though. He tries his best to accept both of those sides. That's more than what most people have ever given me.

[hierophany]

It’s difficult for me to understand, I suppose.

Dio was the first person I encountered capable of seeing stands. I never really thought of him as being a vampire in any way other than a strategic one. To be honest, I always thought of myself as like him, if far, far weaker. I had more in common with him than I would ever have with a human who couldn’t see stands.

[reposing]

I admit, I wouldn't know. People could just experience weird bullshit where I was from regardless of their origins. The fact that one cannot see a Stand is not something I can particularly relate to.

Still. I can't imagine humans treated you as if you weren't a person for what you were. But maybe I'm wrong.